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2025-04-28 03:53 pm

Goodbye Claire

Obviously that won't mean anything to pretty much anyone reading this, but this post is mainly for me and on her behalf. Claire was someone I met back in 2008, and to cut a long story short, she seemed to be The One. And simultaneously The One That Got Away.

She was one of those people who everyone liked the moment they met her, and the first thing I noticed when I first saw her was this amazing smile she had. Something about that was hypnotising. We worked together for quite a while at a charity shop, and she was like a whirlwind of energy and positivity. Nothing seemed to get her down, and she helped me through some pretty crap times. But inevitably things didn't work out and she disappeared for a while.

(It wasn't the only reason, but her mum was a factor in that. She was fiercely protective of her daughter. It's not for me to judge - Claire hinted that something bad happened when she was at college, and maybe her mum was protective of her due to that. Honestly no idea. But from things Claire said, her mum had a habit of "interfering.")

Claire did turn up again a while back and we stayed friends - sometimes we'd bump into each other in the local town or she'd send an email.

I hadn't heard from her for well over a year, and then a few days ago someone in Halesowen asked if I knew that Claire had passed away. I checked her Facebook page and that devastating nugget of information turned out to be true. She died back at the start of March. One of those situations where you just can't believe it's happened, but of course, it had.

So she's gone and I never had chance to even say goodbye. And frankly it was heartbreaking to see that news. But it was at least comforting to see how many people had left messages on her page, saying how she had that amazing "radiant smile" and how much she helped other people over the years. Just one really nice comment after another.

So, goodbye Claire, and I'm so glad I had the chance to be your friend, however briefly.
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2025-02-22 04:44 pm

Shiiiiny New Nightlights EP And Everything

I decided to put together a supporting EP for the previous album (Somewhere Else) and just about got it finished a few days ago. I wanted to make an extended version of one of the album tracks, so that got nudged up to 8 minutes of sheer quality goodness. And I stuffed four totally new and very shiny songs on there to go with it, which were songs that didn't quite make it to the album.[1]

If anyone wants to have a sneaky listen, it's on Bandcamp now as a pre-order. So only "Wolf" is available for yonder ears, but the full dainty is out next Friday.

[1] I tried to keep the main album to around 45 minutes, which is why those extra tracks were left aside. Apparently between 35 to 45 minutes is the "golden time" for an album running time. Much shorter and it doesn't feel like an album, and much longer and people tend to nod off. Doubtless that news sent a shiver down the spine of any prog rock fan, and I don't doubt there's still a market out there for 270 minute long songs with 10 guitar solos and a 30 minute synth solo. But generally, it seems less is more and all that.
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2024-12-30 04:34 pm

Oh No Not More Crap About Autism Help Arrrgh Etc

I saw this quote on Another Site(tm) a few days ago and stuff:-

"Being late-recognized autistic means you spent some nontrivial part of your life not understanding that a lot of the friction you’ve experienced in life is due to disability you didn’t know you were compensating for. It makes for some really complex grieving."

And it hit bloody hard. At the time I had another tab open, and I was looking for books about the Magic of Autism. There are a few around for adults, but a lot of them are dry, dusty medicinal tomes that are of precisely zero interest. Many of the books I saw were either specifically for kids, or aimed at parents giving advice on how to help their autistic kids. And I am so very, very glad that kids today now have that chance to get help and advice, and parents can learn from those books and help their kids.

Because[1] until fairly recently, there was pretty much nothing. If you grew up in the 80s and 90s for example, autism was barely known about and kids at that point were just labelled as shy, lazy, difficult, problem children. If they had ADHD, they were off their head on the chemicals in the food, and the lucky ones were called hyperactive. There was a meme somewhere that said "Boomers claim there were no autistic kids when they were at school." And underneath it said "The autistic boomers" with a picture of Spongebob and a few other characters muzzled and tied up in a cellar.

I spent many happy years at school being bullied for reasons that in retrospect were very clearly tied in with being autistic. I was told that I was shy and needed to try harder to fit in. Make friends. Smile more. I was phenomenally crap at sports and PE lessons were a nightmare, but I was told to just "try harder" which... made no difference. Not surprising when you have 3 left feet and your arms take several minutes to realise that there's a cricket ball gunning for your head. Happiest days of your life, my arse.

My first boss was - and please excuse the expression - a total sack of shit with no patience at all. I don't know if it would have made any difference had he known that I was autistic, and I'll never know. I enjoyed the time I spent working at a library, but there were times when it was extremely hectic and overwhelming. Again, had anyone known, the librarian may have been able to say "take a break if it gets too much" but again, he didn't know. Oddly enough because neither did I.

I've been sent on various Jobcentre courses that were highly unsuitable for reasons linked to having the power of autism, and it was frankly hell. Whether the Jobcentre would have given a damn anyway is another matter, as they're hardly known for their caring attitude. But as it does officially class as a disability, I'd imagine there must be some laws in place that mean they have to make some exceptions and so on. Again, too late now.

And I had major panic attacks partly caused by getting overwhelmed by one thing after another. Which in turn was partly caused by a mother who thought she knew everything there was to know about phobias, insisted I clearly had agoraphobia, she'd be the genius who would find the cure, and the only solution was to get out there and face the fears. Which I tried, and that just made it worse. Shopping malls and extremely packed record fairs are wonderful places to go if you want a meltdown. Autism can't be cured, and if you break your limits, it has repercussions. In my case I was extremely ill from 1993 till about 2012 due to overwhelming stress, among other things. Sadly, 2012 or thereabouts was when my mum was no longer around - I don't really like to think of the obvious connection there, but there's no getting around it...

So yes, going back to that original quote, there's nothing that can be done now. "It is what it is." Even so, I wonder how different things could have been if they'd been able to spot what was wrong from a much earlier age. I might have avoided some 20+ years of constant panic attacks and nearly croaking from losing masses of weight due to being too stressed to scoff the nosh.

And the fact that it's an actual disability - and until July this year I had that disability and didn't know for 50+ years - is quite the eyeball opener. I'm glad I know - better late than never - but it does feel like I've suddenly been nudged into an alternate timeline and the previous me has kind of slipped away. I don't know... it's tricky to put that into words but it's a strange feeling. I guess I'm grieving to some extent for the person I could have been if I'd been given help.

And that is why I am so glad those books for children are now around, and that they're given much more help, and generally the chance of early diagnosis is a lot higher now. They can avoid some of that and have a better chance of becoming who they're really meant to be.

(To be fair, I don't know much about what "help" is available now, but there must be something. It surely can't be a case of "you're autistic, best of luck!" And whatever that help may be, I'd prefer to know long before Prime Minister Farage takes over in 2029 and closes the entire NHS down and has me euthanized.)

[1] I was told never to start a sentence with "Because" but I'm a creature of Khaos so I do not care.

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2024-12-29 05:06 pm

Five Questions

Nicked from [personal profile] loganberrybunny 

1. What is the oldest object in the room with you?

Me.

2. What is the newest?

A nice graphic novel about autismness called Lavendar Clouds which was a Christmas gift.

3. What is your favourite object in the room with you?
Probobbily my computer, since so much of what I do depends on that cheeky little thing. Otherwise, my collection of Fighting Fantasy books (currently 1 to 35 but the rest are way too expensive.)

4. What is the most valuable object?

My Mininova synthesizer, at just over £300.

5. What is the ugliest object?

Me.

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2024-12-24 04:28 pm

Braaaaaaaains

These thinks were thinked last night after I woke up from a weird dream and couldn’t get back to sleep. I hoped to bore myself back to sleep, so now you must suffer the same fate.

The last few years, I’ve had countless dreams where I’ve been wandering around a city, trying to find one specific shop. The target shop always changes, but the city always seems to be roughly the same layout. And yet every time I manage to get completely lost there.

For some reason I always know (in the dream) that the city I’m in is a UK place called Wolverhampton. I haven’t been there since 2012 and the dream version never looks remotely like the real one. But somehow I know in that dream that it’s Wolverhampton and I’m gonna be stuck there because I don’t know how to get back to the bus station, thanks to being lost.

And despite never managing to find the place or person that I’m supposed to be looking for, every damn time I end up in either a record shop or a comic shop, neither of which really existed and yet they always feel extremely familiar.

What makes it weird when I wake up is how, in those comic/record shops, they’re full of items. There’s stuff on that shelf all with titles and covers, merchandise that never existed, bands that don’t exist. I even heard a Beatles tune that never existed and it sounded amazing, but can I bloody remember a note of it once I woke up? Ha! No chance.

So how is that sleeping squishy brains seem able to create all that detail (even outside, all the things you’d expect such as other people, traffic, lamp posts, drain covers, even blades of grass etc are there) and yet now I’m awake, I wouldn’t stand any chance of actually drawing a comic shop full of dainty items. Or thinking up hundreds of band names and album covers. Yet a dozing stupid thick brain manages to make all that appear in 60fps at 4K with surroundsound. Bizarre.
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2024-10-28 02:48 pm

New Nightlights Album And Stuff And Things

At bloomin last, my new Nightlights album "Somewhere Else" is finished, and on Bandcamp for just four of your earthly gold coins. Just in case anyone is remotely interested. =^_^=

It feels like this one has taken forever to be completed, but then I've been putting a lot of time into the band I'm now part of, The Moons of Jupiter. So that's partly why this one has been in development for so long. But it got there eventually - slightly more haunting songs than usual, which was intentional.
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2024-10-18 02:55 pm

Musicness

A new and reasonably shiny Nightlights album is almost finished. I've still got to piece together the cover art, although that shouldn't take too long. And tonight I need to listen to the masters of the songs on nogginphones. But once that's done, maybe in a week or two it'll be ready to put onto Bandcamp.

I realise this announcement, for pretty much anyone reading it, is slightly less exciting than getting slapped in the face with a wet fish. But it's the best I've got right now. It's either that or more posts about that autism diagnosis, and although there are things to say there, I don't want to be a pain. So, music it is!
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2024-09-14 03:28 pm

Le Purr

There is no escape from Le Purr.

Le Purr

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2024-07-18 04:48 pm

Autisticosity Stuff

Sooo.... I was officially diagnosed as autistic a couple of weeks ago. "Whoopdedoo, so are lots of other people" etc. After all, 0.8% of the UK = many many billions. Odds are this post will be of very little interest to most people who read it, but it's partly for my own reference, and partly because I've got so many thinks rattling round my head that I need to get them out somewhere. And right now, there isn't really anyone I can ramble to about it. Family haven’t been told with one exception, and friends are going through a lot of their own issues so I don’t want to hassle them. So I’ll hassle Dreamwidth instead.

I'll stuff the rest into one of those "cut" things, if it works...

Abandon All hope Ye Who Enter Etc )

Innit.


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2024-05-08 03:25 pm

Mysteriousnessstufftypethings

I was on a course over the last few weeks, and it involved a lot of writing in a workbook - I don't do much writing these days so it was something I'm not all that used to any more.

However, apart from the joys of occassional hand cramp, one of the tutors there was being a cheeky chap and watching over my shoulder. And he pointed out how strange it was that I tend to write in a slightly odd way. I write the word, but leave some of the letters out and then go back to fill them in afterwards.

For example, if I was writing the word "donut" I might write the letters "do" and "ut" with a small gap between them, and then (before moving onto the next word) I go back after to fill in the "n". I don't have the faintest idea if this is relatively common or just plain arrrgh, but I never even noticed I've been doing that. And as far as I know it's only a fairly recent thing.

I blame Thatcher.
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2024-03-29 10:24 am

New Purr!

On Tuesday I went to fetch a calico cat, called Princess. Her previous owner is too ill to look after her any more, which was very sad, but she wanted Princess to go to a good home. So I decided to help out.

Princess sleeping

Here she is dozing after a day of exploration. She is extremely shy, and hides every time anyone enters the room, but she's making good progress. She's climbed out from behind the curtain plenty of times, and yesterday when I was watching Spiderman 2, she curled up on my lap and went to sleep.

She's roughly 2 and a half, so quite a young mew at the moment, and full of curiosity. =^_^=

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2024-03-15 02:33 pm

Roll 3d6 To Read This Post

I managed to track down a copy of this very fine and very red book a few weeks ago, and finally made a start on reading the cheeky thing last night.

Dice Men Book

As a big fan (well, not that big, just 5'8") of the Fighting Fantasy gamebooks from the 80s onwards, this book was a must-have. If you're after a book that is specifically about Fighting Fantasy however, it may well not be your kind of thing because that's only really covered towards the end of this veritable tome.

In that case you'd be better served with an equally great book called "You Are The Hero" which is solely about the Fighting Fantasy series. However, best of luck finding a copy because it's a tough one to track down now and the second volume is damn near impossible. (My copy of volume 1 and 2 are in a titanium safe underground protected by a Frankenstein, laser beams, and a photo of Thatcher in the shower.)

But if like me, you want to find out about the two guys who started the FF books and also Games Workshop - namely Ian Livingstone and Steve Jackson - this is definitely well worth a purrchase. There's loads of background information about the two dudes and their struggles to get the company up and running, and almost every page has assorted pictures connected with the whole thing. All in all very nicely designed, and since the book was also written mostly by Mr Livingstone, it's been a joy to read so far. Get it down ya.
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2024-03-12 11:19 am

Mode

Friday last week was quite a night to remember. We (as in, the band I'm in, The Moons Of Jupiter) were the support act at an amazing venue called The River Rooms, in Stourbridge, and we were there to support a Depeche Mode tribute band called Black Celebration. They have a pretty sizeable following and do an excellent job, but we didn't actually expect many people to turn up before they were on stage. So we expected a small audience at best.

Well... the actual gig went great, and the venue owners gave us access to the full lights and even the dry ice machines, so it all looked very professional. And as it turned out, there were well over 250 people there, which I didn't find out till afterwards, and in a way I'm kinda glad I didn't know at the time! For a support act, we actually got a really good reaction, so all in all I'm very pleased with how it al went.

And thanks to Jeff from the Black Celebration band for being so welcoming and friendly when we turned up. He had a good chat with us about the music, Depeche Mode, and the synths, so that was really appreciated.
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2024-03-02 03:54 pm

More Giggitys

Under the mysterious guise of the new electropop band I'm in, The Moons Of Jupiter, we played a whole half an hour set last Saturday at HMV. I would never have imagined saying that a year ago. (Mainly because the band didn't exist a year ago.) I can't deny that I was bloody nervous just before we started. Setting up the equipment - which included not just my stuff, but also we had to provide our own PA which weighed a ton - was a good distraction. But then there was about half an hour of standing around not doing much except quietly thinking "ARRRRRRGH."

But once we actually started the show, it went with no problems and I just concentrated on noodling about with the keyboard, and the nerves more or less vanished. And it went even better than we hoped. Some of the audience were people we knew who had turned up to support us, but at least two thirds were people who we didn't know, and quite a few had been wandering past HMV and went in to see what was going on. (And thankfully stuck around.) There was one distracting moment when someone behind me started clicking through the poster rack, but otherwise it went great. And we sold 10 CDs by the end of the show which may not sound much, but according to the assistant manager there, that is very rare. Usually sales from a band playing there are roughly on the bad side of zero. So that was very encouraging.

We did a set at a new place in Brierley Hill on Wednesday too, a really nifty place called the Voodoo Blue Lounge. It was a quiet night though and only about 10 people were there. But it was still a good reaction to the music and extra practice without any pressure.

Next up is a support slot in Stourbridge, supporting a Depeche Mode tribute act called Black Celebration. Next Friday. HELP!

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2024-02-15 05:04 pm

Question Time

Stolen, half-inched, taffed, nicked, grabbed and generally claimed from [personal profile] loganberrybunny and [personal profile] howsmyenglish  Bwahaha etc it's mine now and so on and so forth.

What’s the coolest thing you’ve ever seen in nature?
That's a tricky one because I'm one of these people that is constantly in awe of what nature does, and can't wrap my empty head round how it manages it. I suppose as an actual place or event though... well, over 120 years ago, a local area known as New Hawne Colliery was simply that. A huge mineworks, and they devasted a huge amount of the local scenery. Maybe it was vital at the time, maybe not. I'm not getting into that side of things. Just that the mines closed around 1920, give or take. And since then, although it's taken the best part of 100 years, nature has claimed it back against the odds. Trees and bushes have grown there, wild flowers have appeared, there is wildlife all over the place that have made it home again - rabbits, dragonflies, even rare butterflies apparently, although I never saw any. It's near impossible to get through the place now as it's so overgrown, but that's a good thing. It keeps us humans outta there.

What national or international events that you lived through do you remember best?
In recent times, stinky Covid. In not so recent times, September 11th, which terrified the butt off me even if I don't live in the USA. For a moment, the world felt like it had completely flipped its pancakes. And they never flipped back.

Does technology make us more alone?
No. Thanks to technology, specifically the internet, I've found so many friends that I would quite simply never have found otherwise. I know the internet, certainly in the form of smartphones, is blamed for wrecking society. But as long as it doesn't become a total obsession and social media etc don't take over your life, it's absolutely a force for good. Also technology meant I was finally able to achieve my dream of making music - something I just couldn't have done before because hardware synths cost staggering amounts of money, way beyond what I could have afforded. And that in turn has led to more friends or reconnecting with old friends from school, and so on.

How much do you trust online reviews?
Depends on the situation. I'll very often check Trustpilot if its a company I've never used before, but even then sometimes it'll depend on using a bit of common sense. As far as reviews for films or games is concerned, I don't trust them much because some of my favourite films have pretty naff reviews. I'll judge by what others have said about it, ideally people I know, if at all possible.

What are your experiences with severe weather?
To be honest, it isn't really something we get that much of in the UK. Not generally anyway. In the 80s we did used to get snow that was so deep, we had to dig tunnels through it to get to school. But tell kids that now and they'd never believe you. Probably the grimmest weather I remember was the flooding and rain back in 2007 (I think...) which I didn't experience directly. But my parents were driving back from Wales or somesuch, and witnessed the sight of three people literally rowing a boat across a field.

What are your favorite commercials?
Not a clue. Apart from an occassional online advert that I'll almost exclusively ignore, I haven't been deluged with the honour of commercials since the 90s. Most of my favourites would be from the 80s, mostly because a lot of them were for sweets and toys/games, which at the time were more important than oxygen.

Do you believe in intelligent alien life?
There's a distinct shortage of it left on earth, so there had bloody well better be some out there somewhere. Out of the trillions of planets that must be floating around lazily in space, we can't be the only ones with life on.

Would you like to ride in a car that drives itself?
No.

Have you ever interacted with the police?
Once as a kid, when someone broke our window and the local community plod turned up, and he turned his steely gaze on me and asked if I knew who had done it and if I'd pissed anyone off. Which was nice.

The only other time was when I was in WHSmiths, checked for an art magazine that they didn't have, and hurried out the shop because I knew I would be in time for the next bus. Next thing I know, two pairs of trotters on the shoulders and they insisted the WHSmiths manager had seen me acting suspiciously in the shop. So they searched every pocket, my entire backpack, and begrudgingly had to admit I'd stolen precisely sod all. Meantime, passers-by were there tutting away as if I'd done something wrong. Which was nice. Especially as I was having particularly nasty panic attacks back in those times, so that didn't really help.

Do you worry a lot about germs?
NO! I LOVE 'EM! THEY'RE MY BEST FRIENDS. THEY ARE SO CUDDLY AND WARM.
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2024-02-15 12:16 pm

Winifred

I've recently become obsessed with a group of animal characters created by Sam Fennah, originally for a series he was making called Satellite City. From what I gather, he kind of went for a reboot and wrote a book last year called "Amygdala" featuring all the characters and a bunch of new ones. The book itself is a behemoth, at well over 1000 pages, so I'm almost terrified at the thought of starting it. But it looks amazing, and has something like 80+ of Fennah's paintings which are stunning.

He also has a bunch of stuff on Youtube, but the one that really stuck with me is the one below, featuring a character called Winifred. I should mention that many of his characters are quite sinister looking in their own way and his videos tend to feature a lot of swearing. (Not this one though. This is just the animation and a song.) So if that puts you off, they may be best avoided. And Winifred in the video below is quite disturbing and isn't very easy to look at, but (as others have said) she has a kind of beauty of her own, if that makes sense.



Having not yet read the book, I'm going on what I heard via a Wiki page, so I may be way off the mark here. But poor Winifred apparently used to have golden fur, and at some point something happened which left her blind and a shadow of her former self. That, combined with the stunning cover of the Bee Gees song, "I Started A Joke" is just heartbreaking, though it should also be mentioned that Winifred was also apparently not the nicest of characters before that all happened to her.

(And I quote from the esteemed Mr Fennah himself, "She'd murder you for a biscuit..." To be honest, I can relate, especially if it was a Jammy Dodger.. =^_^=  )
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2024-02-15 11:55 am

Talk Talk - It's My Life

I don't know the exact date that this was released, but February 1984 was apparently when it first appeared on the shelves so it's effectively 40 years... 40 DARN YEARS ARRGHH... since Talk Talk released their second album, "It's My Life." 9 songs that are kind of 80s synthpop, but somehow a bit more than that.




For me, Talk Talk is The Band(tm) and I've been a fan since 1991. Their music means a huge amount to me, to the point where I can say - without wishing to dwell on details - that I may well not be around if it wasn't for their songs. I first stumbled across them via their 1986 song, "Life's What You Make It" and that in turn led me to checking out a random 7 inch single, "It's My Life." Which I absolutely loved, but after that, I decided to track down their albums in order.

So... although the first album knocked my proverbial socks off, it was this second album (It's My Life) that absolutely cemented my love of the band. I was and still am a very big fan of synths, and this album is awash with them. The debut album was as well, but they were solid slabs of synth, whereas on this album it's done more subtly. They're more like textures rather than blasting synth leads. And hearing this after thinking the debut album was excellent, it was like "holy donuts! This is even better."

(And although synths still played a role on later albums, they mostly trimmed them out of the songs, so this was the last time they used them significantly.)

The bulk of the synth sounds were created by synth boffin Ian Curnow, and he used techniques with synths that nobody had done before. I can't remember exact details, but somehow he linked two Jupiter 8 synths together and found that by adjusting dials on one, it affected the other, creating the weird semi-guitar sound that is used on several of the tracks. Something that could be done fairly easily on modern keyboards now, but was a nightmare to do back in the 80s.

Sadly the main mover and songwriter for the band, Mark Hollis, died back in 2019. That hit me hard, because although he'd long, long since retired from the music scene, I always had that tiny little thought that maybe one day I'd meet him, maybe chat with him, or perhaps even work on a bit of music. (Very very unlikely, but while he was alive, I always had that tiny shred of hope.) Alas, it was not to be, though I do have a very nice hand written and signed letter from him, which I keep very safe.

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2024-02-06 03:20 pm

Nightlights Update 879867923857938 - Various Thinks

A few weeks ago (or it might have been centuries - time is going so quickly that I just don't know) I wrote a boring thing about my Nightlights music and how I was considering saying bum to it and moving onto something else.

One of the reasons was because I couldn't think of a theme for a new album, but after finishing that cover version of Halo for The Moons Of Jupiter, it kind of inspired a few ideas. I've been trying out some slightly darker Depeche Mode style music, just as little sketches at the moment. But it went better than I expected, and last night while trying to sleep the sleep of the innocent, I had an idea for a possible album theme.

So with a theme in place and a renewed interest in the music itself... well, I might still release it under a different name (maybe the old Snowkitten "band" name) I'll see how it goes and it might mean I'll carry on with Nightlights for a bit longer. Time will tell, as someone said when they invented the talking clock and everything.

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2024-02-06 02:48 pm

Hello Halo

We (that is, me and him) did a cover version of a Depeche Mode classic called "Halo". If anyone wants to give it a listen and stuff. :)




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2024-02-04 05:27 pm

Comicness

I can't for the life of me remember if I've ever mentioned my old webcomic on here before. I can't find any posts that mention it, but I only had a quick skim through so I might have missed it.

Anyway... between 2010 and 2015, I created a little webcomic called Snowkitten Kids and got about 250 pages done in total. The comic wasn't intended to be a piece of high art, and in that it succeeded admirably. But it was meant to be just a bit of fun to do, and it was about my various "snowkitten" characters as mischevious kids rather than the more usual mischevious adults. (It was also not canon to the main story that I will probably never write, but that's a whole other... story.)

To be fair, looking back through those pages, some of the chapters aren't great, but I'm quite proud of a few moments throughout the story. The final chapter was one I especially liked, as it was a time travel story involving a little dude called Carc, and when I reread it earlier today, it was actually surprisingly complex. So... yeah, as I say, it had its moments. But generally I can't help thinking I can do better.

Early last year, I did have plans to go through all those old pages, redraw a few that were particularly crap, and maybe just maybe get it published via Amazon as a little indie book. I did actually manage to redraw the pages but never got round to scanning them and shading them in, because that in itself is an extremely long winded process.

What I'm thinking now is that selling it on Amazon would make it an extremely niche thing. Even back in the day, it got hardly any views and as a printed version, I don't realistically see it selling anything at all. But what I'm wondering is if, assuming I have time (and that was largely why I stopped drawing it in 2015) I might start with a kind of reboot. Not a total redo of the entire thing, but maybe start again and take a few of the better bits and rework them into a totally new story. And then, perhaps put that up for sale on Amazon. If by some miracle it actually did okay, I might then have the incentive to put the original out as a kind of "extremely humble beginnings" collection. Something to think about anyhoo. =^_^=